Help me

As usual this blog is super dusty and all. Haven't had the mood to blog till now. Here at my cousins hse for a sleepover.Gawd. It wasnt my idea but my Mom. Here to be a full time nanny for 3 whole day! This whole thing isn't fun at all. My aunt and uncle left me with them while they work. Good god. Have to nag at them to eat, tidy up the house and whats more BATHE. tsk tsk. can someone pls help me?

They're tidying up the hse now while i'm relaxing.hahahs. But hey, i did so much so it isn't unfair if I'm relaxing while they're packing up their own mess. hahahas. I'm not a good cousin, i know.hahahs. Thank god i'm going back tmr. Goodbbye hell, hello heaven.

My stupid brother isn't helping at all.Keeps playing with his dumb car racing game since morning.In a matter of time the tv is going to break down. He is suppose to play with the young ones instead he is entertaining himself with his stupid play station.Jeez, i sound like an aunty ranting about the kids.oh well, this suck

While my yougest cousin is jumping ard me it reminded me of CALISTA! hahahs.but at least calista is easier to handle than this one here.Seldom an angel but always a devil!

okay, i have a time limit to using the com cause i have to go back to play with them.Guess what i have play?! BARBIE DOLLS! wtf,i don't even touch that crap thing even when i was younger but now i have to play it with them.

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Each time i look at you my heart would have this sudden pain cause i realise taht we're worlds apart.I tried not to think about you so that i could lead life as normal.It isn't that easy so i had to put on a mask and fake it.But there's one problem with it,the mask comes off automatically at night.I couldn't survive through each night and those tears would just fall.I couldn't pretend that i'm okay with whats now.I crumbling inside

With that damn mask i could stop thinking about you.Stop thinking wheather you had your meals,if youre sleeping or what you are doing now but somewhere in my heart it stings.

Could we hit the reverse button and pause it at that moment forever? But i guess we couldnt and i have to live with it.I'm drowning those memories but they seem to resurface with lil life jackets on.You know at tmes i realyy want to turn back time and make everything right or maybe to avoid it.

Find comfort in pain

I've got to go and play with DOLLS now.ZOMG