Imagine, if.

I rip and tear so get the hell out of here.

Thursday, May 10, 2007 @ 6:45 PM

My mistake.

The mid officially ends tmr with only MCQ(:
It's been a horrible week with me burying my face into those shit books.
All are exhausted la.

I screwed my English paper to the max please.
Can't belief i was so blind to see that the maximum no. of words is 120 when it is suppose to be 160 la.
Fuck man, Dillon(?) is bound to kill me.

Screwed Chinese paper 1 too.
I left so many blanks for the teacher to fill la, don't even know what my dictionary is for.
Even if i know the hanyu pinyin for the damn word, i don't have the slightest clue which word is it and i just pick any.
Gawd, I'm gonna fail it.
Lao shi wants USS to have remedial from now onwards.
She must have mark our papers already and it is horrendous.
Sheesh.

Chinese oral today and I'm gonna get a super low grade.
The words that came out from my mouth are all broken la.
Thank god lao shi save me a little.
I need to improve on my Chinese till the 'O' papers are over.
-.-

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I used to love fill-in-the-blank to the max. I gave her all that i can or probably more but it seems that no matter how much i gave, i still can't replace a particular someone in her heart. Maybe she expects more but I'm just not capable of giving anymore. When we had decided to let it go and not try to achieve it, i was left drifting away from reality towards fantasy. I just couldn't accept it and give her up yet.

Stayed in fantasy and lived by those memories. The memories that we had created are too little to last me forever so reality came pounding at me. When I've come to realise that she ain't by my side anymore, i felt stupid to believe that she will somehow or rather come back (which in this case, did not). But there's this special someone who has always been by my side and i did not even realise it as i was blinded by those foolish thoughts. Didn't treasure her like how i did for fill-in-the-blank.

I'm sorry you had to go through all those crap just because i wasn't ready to give it up yet. But now i am ready cause you never once left my side and had shown your heart to me. This time i promise that i won't let it slip out of my hand cause I'm going to lock it in my heart(:

On a separate note,

That shitfaced idiot is still being anal.
Stop giving everybody your crap la, we are not obligated at all.
Your face is already black enough so stop bringing your emotions out to make it look like charcoal la.

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My Mom isn't back with dinner and I'm ubermega hungry now.
Shall eat baby's choc.
Alright, gonna play audi now(:

Am i being selfish?