Imagine, if.

I rip and tear so get the hell out of here.

Friday, December 28, 2007 @ 3:01 AM

Emotions Ripped Out Once Again.

I should be in bed at this hour right now but i just can't sleep. Even if my eyes are closed, my brain is still running through past and recent events and i don't get it. To hell with it for now cause I'm afraid to really go through even single bit of it once again. Especially not right now cause i might just lose it once again.

Okay so work had been pretty slack since most people got their presents. So basically my job is just to stand ard and pretend to be busy and i get the cash. Pretty cool huh but the down side is, time passes way too slowly for me. There's nothing much to do so time crawls when you keep checking on the time.

Anyway, if someone ask for a new freaking piece again i might just slap the shit outta him/her. Can't they just get it that every single piece in the store is new and nothing is old or recycled? To all fucktards out there, stop asking for a new piece every time unless that thing is really in a bad shape.

3 more days of folding those damn clothes which i can't seemed to get it done nicely till today. I think i might need more practise to ace it. Folding clothes is really hard especially if there's a mountain of it. But thank god i'm gonna quit doing that real soon and get back to my ole night life which i damn hell missed.

On a separate note, H you better get your mom to allow you to get out of the hse at that ungodly hour to have supper with us okay. If you don't, who's gonna drink and get drunk with me huh? Kidding, we definitely won't get ourselves drunk cause both our mom will kill us. Plus i'm afraid you'll leave me behind if i'm drunk cause i sure as hell will leave you behind. Wahahahs. Joking babe. So hurry get your mom's permission. Tell her you'll be home the next day. That's what i told my mom anyway and she's cool with it so i guess yours will be the same(:

So after work i went to Serangoon to have my dinner with the babes. The little one has a bottomless pit for a stomach. She eats more than me i guess and i doubt she's ever full. She has incredible energy that no one has cause she was running ard the playground. You can say i was super tired and didn't have the energy to play with her. Ah, let's face it. I'm old but hey i wasn't the oldest there. She is (Yes, its you =D) So basically we just eat, talk and just hang ard eat other. It's been a long time since i was out with her. She's still as mad as ever and that makes her funny and cool to be ard with.

Well, i must admit that i wasn't entirely myself that night( actually it's just a few hours ago only since the time now is rather screwed) cause of the distance that grew over time. But the good thing is, it felt way better than the first time i went out with them. That very afternoon i was so damn nervous and all but i felt pretty cool when i met them a few hours back. So it's great catching out with them once again cause i don't know when is the next time we'll meet since school is starting for the both of them. Oh well, the night was great and it really has been a long run.

edit.

I have issues that i can't understand much less settle it. If i follow my head rather than my heart, i might just regret it in the later part. But if i follow my heart, i might just lose it all and it never was there in the first place. SOMEBODY HELP!

I might not be the best but when it came to you, i gave in my all.
Cause i felt it in my heart that it will work.
But i guess you never did cause i overlooked one crucial point
And that is, you had someone else in your heart and there is no way you can squeeze another person in.
Or maybe i just wasn't what you had expected.
Maybe you wanted something more which i couldn't give.

I will most probably walk down the same road once again knowing what i will feel and all
cause the time shared has higher value than those crap bad memories.
I might just turn the bad ones into something good.
Who knows..

Alright, i'm just a little screwed right now. I'll just have to sleep it off and every thing's gonna be okay when i wake up. This sounds reassuring and i love it. Hahahs. So goodnight world. I'm off tmr! WHOOPEEE!

Let's make it OUR time.