Imagine, if.

I rip and tear so get the hell out of here.

Saturday, April 19, 2008 @ 8:11 PM

I’m heading back to those good times for a day.
Will you come with me?

Since I slept rather late last night,
It’s normal to wake up late like ard 1 plus
But, I woke up at 11am.
All thanks to A.
Some good morning msg from her
((*^&$@)!
I swear her good morning and night msges are a killer.
I’m gonna kill her when I see her on Mon.
-smirks

I wanted to head out today but I find myself glued in front of the computer.
I don’t even know what the hell I’ve been doing.
It’s boring online and I’m kinda sick of those games.
I wonder why I reject those invitations to head out.

Hilda quick be available!
I want and I need to date you(=
We will catch a movie or something and do crazy stuff like we used to.

On a separate note,
I saw the two Rs at heartland yesterday.
It’s been so long since I last saw her.
It was good.

Heartland seems strange to me.
I used to refuse to be any where near it since some stuff happened.
But when I look back now, it’s kinda stupid.
But at that time, heartland holds too much of her.
I could almost see her in every corner of heartland.
Maybe I’ve stuff all those to the back of my head but whenever I step into heartland,
She appeared.
So I’m thankful that I don’t have much business to do at heartland only the occasional short trips there to meet Hilda.

Alright I’m way past that now since it has already been so long. (I’m trying to kid myself here)
And if miracles do happen, they will already happen.

On a brighter note,
I wanna go for a run.
To clear some stuff from my head and I’m feeling heavy these days.
But sadly I can’t.
My heart will protest and it leaves me in pain.
It’s unbearable and I fucking don’t need an attack to remind me of it.
But I seriously miss running.
I will get better.
HA!

I’ll try to be whoever you want
I’ll try to give whatever you need
I’ll change what habits that you hate
I’ll be a better man for you
I’ll be the first that you turn to
I’ll never hurt you
I’ll assure you everyday that I love you
All I ask is for a chance.
Let me in.

If I really did the first 3, I won’t even know myself anymore.
So screw that.

Previous post reminds me of those good and heart wrenching days.