Imagine, if.

I rip and tear so get the hell out of here.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 @ 6:27 PM

Hate is safer than love.

Someone post this question about having a time machine and whether I would change any event in my life.
And it seriously got me thinking. (pst, you knew I would ponder about it. Arse)
So yes, I wanna go back and change or maybe add a closure to two events.
I didn’t give that two events which were the most important and treasured part of me a proper closure.
Given a chance, I rather end it all in a good note than to change the whole thing and make sure that those histories were erased.

Let see, I was selfish and I just left without saying a word.
This can already condemn me to hell.
To think at that point of time I was such a jerk.
Can’t really blame her since I didn’t show her any appreciation or love so she kinda went off with another.
Didn’t give her a chance to explain and I walked away without turning back.
Wanna go back and tell her that I’m was being such an arse and I fucking don’t deserve whatever she had done for me.
She deserves way better and I will let her go properly to find whatever she needs.

The second, hmm..
It was a real bad parting.
We were not together at all so it’s kinda hard.
Let’s just say anger and jealousy got the better of me. (It’s dumb, I know)
So I wanna head back and tell her that whatever decision and reason she wanna give,
I’ll be fine with it.
Not gonna turn away from her neither will I hate her for it.
Yeah, at one point of time I seriously don’t understand that’s why hatred surfaced.
So, she too deserve way better.
At least I understand whatever she had said now when it used to be just some excuses to me.
I didn’t get to say this to you at all so I might just as well say it here since time machine doesn’t exist.
I love you, always did from the very beginning.

Histories made us who we are now.
So I damn hell have to live with a room of regrets and learn from them.
And now I fucking hate those idiots who are trying to clone this and that.
Might as well channel their time and energy to invent a time machine.
Living things are all special, what’s the friggin point of making a duplicate?

This is one lengthy post.
Thanks fill-in-the-blank for this question uh. (note the sarcasm)
It’s my turn to ask you back now(=

Okay now on a brighter note.
Mother’s day dinner went down pretty ugly.
The food was horrible.
Thanks to my uncle.
We drank some horrible vegetable soup which my grandmother can cook way better.
Seriously, who goes to the restaurant to drink soup?
Prolly only him.

And god knows why this year the dishes are so little.
It wasn’t enough to fill my stomach much less my brother.
We were complaining all the way home.
-.-
Our stomach is a bottomless pit.

To make up for that pathetic dinner, my dad is gonna bring us to his resort club to have Japanese food(=
He can prepare to sew up his pockets after the meal.
HAHA!

I dream about a girl whose a mix of Destiny's Child
Just little touch of Madonna's wild style
With Janet Jackson's smile, throw in a body like Jennifer's
You got the star of my liquid dreams

Angelina Jolie's lips to kiss in the dark
Underneath Cindy C's beauty mark
When it comes to the test well Tyra's the best
And Salma Hayek brings the rest

Trust this feeling.