Imagine, if.

I rip and tear so get the hell out of here.

Sunday, June 15, 2008 @ 12:30 AM

Whatever happened to what we once had?

Finally met up with B and H. Meeting H wasn't really planned. I just happened to text the wrong person yet again so i just ask her out for supper. Oh i met J too. Great catching up with all of 'em. It's been so damn long, i couldn't even remember how long i haven't seen them.

Ah, if it weren't for a weird meeting which was never intended, i wouldn't have met them. So its kinda great, innit? But that so called basketball thing was a killer. Super out of the blue and so much confusion. I should just spare myself from confusion and just meet her at heartland. It's easier that way.

Anyhow, its kinda weird meeting J and H. Its like i don't know what to say to them anymore. We used to be able to laugh at every little thing that's done or said. Maybe they felt the same way too. There's just too much silence in between. It's as if we are meeting for the first time. This is damn bad. Ok, maybe i've changed. And i'm beginning to think that i did. Oh well, people change, don't they?

So B and i were talking about how great it would be if life's like a dream. Life is being a bitch to us that's why we need to escape! LOL. I swear i wouldn't want to wake up if its like a dream, no seriously.

B: "If its really a dream, you weren't be standing next to me alr"
Me: " Yeah, i'd most prolly be standing next to her"

This is how fucking sad our life is. Gawd, and to think that school's in on Monday. RAHHH!
Ok, that sums up my current life now. I hope it gets better next week.

Oh yes, H(if you're reading this) thanks again for the shirt. Really appreciate it, love you always (You know i do, right from the beginning=D)

On a separate note, i've been walking alot lately. I went to heartland a few days ago and i walked home after that. Sorry SY, its not that i don't want you to walk with me. It's just that i wanna seek solace. It's been real long since i walked home from there. Maybe since i graduated? Well, i was not in the right state of mind since i have alcohol in me. Alcohol doesn't make one forget stuff please. That's bullshit. More like it rake up the past that one have been trying so hard to bury. Well, its the latter for me. I'm gonna quit drinking, need to have a clear headed state of mind. I bet if i tell E that, she'll surely laugh her ass off like i've just told her a joke or smth. HAHAHS. Who am i kidding?

My heart died a long time ago.