Why is it lingering like this?

I dread going to school nowadays,
it used to be fine,
like some kind of routine I slipped into blindly.

But now,
why is school so damn gross that I feel like I can no longer bring myself to be blind.
Or maybe I’ve gotten too lazy.

Spent almost half of my awake hours in school.
Walked everywhere to find “hot” guys and girls.
I see tragedy in the making.
HAHAHA

Finally it’s going to be Thursday once again.
Counting down, counting down.
And maybe I won’t be so broke by the end of this week so that I can go out.
Seems like I’ve been real broke lately.
Something’s wrong with my wallet, I think there might be holes in them.

"Many waters cannot quench love, neither can floods drown it. What then kills love? Only this: Neglect. Not to see you when you stand before me. Not to think of you in the little things. Not to make the road wide for you, the table spread for you. To choose you out of habit not desire, to pass the flower seller without a thought. To leave the dishes unwashed, the bed unmade, to ignore you in the mornings, make use of you at night. To crave another while pecking your cheek. To say your name without hearing it, to assume it is mine to call."

-Jeanette Winterson, "Written On The Body"