My last entry for 2009

2009 is coming to an end.
Mixture of relief and uncertainty is hitting me like a torpedo.
I’m glad I survived all the metal anguish that I was being put through,
all the heartaches that felt like it will never go away,
Not forgetting all my regrets and mistakes which I can’t exactly forget even if I tried to pretend that it didn’t exist.
I’m prepared to keep them all in a box, tagged them as 2009’s and never take them out.

Here comes uncertainty.
I never like this thing, it scares me not because I don’t know what’s going to hit me
But my own reactions to them.
I’m afraid that I’d give a wrong reaction to something and then screw things up.

And there’s the evitable thing call change.
Change is always good, I welcome it in my own way.
But some things shouldn’t change, like friends.
Friends should always be the same.
At least those who matter should.
(You, I’ve missed you)

Things changed, people changed.
Try and try again and you just know that old times will never come back.
And what sickens me is when it becomes obvious that a choice is made and you are being replaced by someone new.
Be it a lover or friend.

So 2009 was an epic nut crack, but in a good way.
School, slack, study, complain, more complains, improved.
Many many retarded episodes in class and of cos falling in and out of love.
Let me guarantee you, that was only a phrase
(A very fun phrase)

And I’ve got to say this, I love you guys.
Those those who i sort of get to talk to everyday,
Those who complains to me,
Those who lets me complain to them,
Those who whine non-stop to me,
Those who lets me whine non-stop to them,
Those who gets annoyed with my chanting of, “ Are we there yet” but will still respond to it,
Those who laughs at me,
Those who talk dirty back to me,
Those who tell me their grandmother long stories,
Those who let me tell my grandmother long stories,
Those who wake me up at ungodly hour just to tell me to pee,
Those who appreciates my nonsense,
Those who go, ”Ewww, gross” at my burp but follows on with a laugh,
Those who know that without my HAHAS, there’s definitely something wrong with me.

2009 will be shit without them.
HAHA

On a separate note,
Before the year officially ends, I shall do a quick update on my extremely short holiday.

I had steamboat at Su’s house with the same bunch.
Shopping for the food was good, had fun choosing and deciding the amount that we should get.
Played many rounds of mah-jong and poker.
Gawd, i suck at it, lost a few million bucks.
I shall hone my skills and be the god of gambler someday.

Went East Coast with them again,
CYCLE CYCLE CYCLE,
Till I couldn’t feel my butt and legs anymore.

Caught Sherlock Holmes with E,
Not a bad movie but some parts were a tad too draggy.
We walked all over town since the places that we wanna go were pretty scattered.

Met E again to buy her stuff,
Again, we walked all over the place because we need to get the cheapest price,
like some aunty, I know.
Put my haggling skills to good use and got some flim for only 11 bucks.

Shisha with her, look like some drug addict, those that you see that are hooked on opium.
Reminds me of a dragon too, with thick smoke coming out through the nostrils.
I wanna buy that thing home to play.

Oh yeah, I had bbq with my family.
Food was good, I’m not a fan of prawns but I ate most of them that night.
So we ate, drink, drank and lastly drunk.
Dad wanted to camp out the entire night but,
nb, no tent la.

I wonder if people do make out in the tent.
What will the rest of the people there think?
“Eck, whose moaning so late in the night?!”
Bet it must be a little creepy.

Alrighty, a really long post.
Shall start preparing to go out.
Shall try to get drunk tonight.
I hope she’s back and calls me(=

Goodbye, my shits.